"Tired"

I use the word "tired" a LOT. So much that I hate using it, I hate feeling it and I hate having to take a break because of it. It really makes my heart sink when I hear those words come out of my mouth.

Within an hour of waking up I'm "tired". After taking a nap I'm "tired". Most of the time I'm tired of being tired, so how do I over come this?

Lately I have been going into debt in the energy catagory. I know that is probably common for everyone during the holidays but this year just seems worse. What makes it so difficult is that I don't know how to communicate to even the closest people to me that I need a break.. or that my body is done. I feel like I have hit a break wall.

Today is Wednesday and I keep reminding myself that the weekend is so close, but them I remember the plans we have made this weekend. But I don't want to cancel them... one is a playoff game for the Seahawks... this will take a weeks worth of energy but is worth every second of it. So then I fast forward and think if I can just make it through to the following weekend.

Will I ever be able to catch up on my debt to energy? I don't know. But I am sure I will fight every day to try.