the morning after

This morning I thought I would wake up feeling better. Yes, I know, I have an optomistic look on life sometimes. But I didn't.

The good news, bland food and fluids are staying in me. A lot of stomach pains come with that, but it works.

Surprising my joints are doing ok today. Last night it was horrible. Had to take medications to sleep. I am feeling stressed too. Is the Benlysta working? Is it not? I just don't know anymore.

I thought working out was helping my body feel better with the Benlysta, now I don't know. What else can I do? I don't know.

Time to pick myself up off the floor, figure this crap out and move on. I think this will be much harder said than donw, but I am going to try.