Thursday

Thursday’s are a HARD day for me. I think I have said it before, but for some reason today is especially bad. I feel like I need toothpicks to hold my eyes open. I know I do it to myself, but it is so worth it. The activities I get to be a part of on Wednesday’s are the most enjoyable thing in the world! I hope to never have to give it up. I just wish there was a way to get rid of the exhaustion side effect.

With all that being said I can’t help be still be elated over so many things that are going on in my life. God is so good! It is an interesting mix of emotions when you body feels as if it’s going to fall over and your mind is wanting to run wild with joy. I want to shout from the roof top how great our God is, how much He shows me His love and how grateful I am for the many, many blessings I have encountered the last couple of weeks.

In saying all that, I am reminded of something I was struggling with last night in my quiet time before AWANA. What do I pray for? Do I pray healing? Do I pray for strength? Do I pray to learn? Do I pray to be an example to other Lupies? Do I pray to be able to handle the many medications I am on? I guess I should be praying for all of that, but for some reason praying for healing seems so wrong, so that is why I thought of this problem. Not because I don’t want to be healed, because I can’t imagine what one day would feel like just being normal. I just know in my heart that God has something to show me through all of this…. He is an amazing God and I know I can only get through this because His strength is holding me through. So I sign off on my dreaded Thursday, enjoying the blue sky peaking through dark gray clouds (literally and figuratively speaking) and enjoy the warm sun on my face for just a moment.

I am thankful for all of you and the blessing He has shown me through you.
Happy Thursday!