Tuesday, August 19, 2008

So the GF diet tanked. There is no way in the world I could do this. Breakfast for me is my most important meal…. And I can’t find anything tasty. Oh well. I have decided that I am going to stop trying to fix all these pains and flares and just learned to live with them. I know I can. Lupus and Fibro is just going to have to live in my body while I fight it off and live with it.

This last weekend I over did it, and I knew it. But you know what- I would do it all over again. It was totally worth it. So now I look for ways to make this happen. I struggle with listening to my body. I struggle with not over doing it. I struggle with thinking so many things are worth it, when they are not.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Day Three, Four & Five.

Well day three sort of worked out. Oh who in the WORLD am I kidding. I had pizza for lunch and a graham cracker later that evening. I seriously cannon do this. Saturday & Sunday I managed to get it done. On Saturday I even went to a couple of specialty stores and bought gluten free stuff- but have you TASTED it? I think I may starve to death. I have tried and there is NO way I am going to be able to do this. What was I thinking? I must have been crazy. Oh well, I tried. I decided I was going to “cut back” on the gluten intake. So I will still use brown rice, and rice flour, but I need my bread and my morning cereal. Sorry folks, it aint gonna happen in this lifetime!

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Day Two

Ok, so it's day two of my "Diet". I have to say I have already failed one...I had a hamburger last night with bread. I have decided after looking at the list I will probably succeed 90% of the time. Quite a few things I can turn in to Gluten free meals, but there is that occassional want for some bread or need for a quick meal.

Today at lunch I did succeed, I chocked down a corn tortilla on my taco (I am a big fan of flour), but I did it. I should weigh myself and see if I get any results. If I can learn to do this, maybe I can discipline myself to do other diets and loose some weight.

Last night was an interesting one.... We had our softball playoffs. I refuse to let Lupus put me 100% down. I quit bowling and I told my doctor there was NO WAY she was taking softball from me. She was surprised, but I am willing to suffer because of my love for the game. Anyways, we played two games in the heat, I have never done that. God really provided for me. As of last week on 10 ladies were suppose to come, that meant I would be on the field for the ENTIRE two games- something I knew I couldn't do. Well God added an 11th lady to the mix and we were assigned to trade places- it is DEFINATLY a God thing.

Two games was hard on me, at one point I stood behind the plate willing my body to stand up straight. It was probably one of the most physically demanding things I had done. I am paying for it today, but it was totally worth the high of winning those two games.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Day One

Well today I saw my doctor. We are going to do a test on my lungs to see what is going on. That will happen in a week or so. The real thing she told me to do is take gluten and wheat out of my diet…. I KNOW! My jaw dropped too. She said that she rarely suggest a natural solution but this seems to work for some of her patients and at this point we need to try whatever we can to get my lupus & fibro to calm down.
So day one begins. Today is bagel Wednesday, I was going to have a bagel for lunch… but that is a no go. After looking at the list of what I can and can’t eat I realize this may NEVER work for me. How do people do it? I am going to really try, but I know there will be setbacks. I am a picky eater as it is, so to add no gluten to that, you might as well give me an IV for nourishment. So stay tuned. Hopefully I won’t get too cranky.